My History...


This is the page where I will talk about how I was raised, what my direct experiences were and where I came from. This will not be where I interpret what happened or how it affected me. That will come out naturally through my journal I'm sure. Consider this page a "chronological page of abuse". I will update this page as I find time and hopefully will have it functional within the next little while, its sure to be an ongoing thing and will be everchanging.


Early Childhood...


I was born the last of about 13 children in total. No one seems to know for certain how many of us there are. But I only have 3 other "full blood" siblings, the rest are half-siblings, step children, etc., many of them I've never even met. Both my parents were married several times... my mother I believe was married 4 times and my dad three times. They divorced when I was a few months old and I lived with my mother and her husband till I left them at about 12 yrs of age. I was raised on and off as a strict Jehovah's Witness, seems my mother left and returned to the church depending on what she needed from them and vice versa.

My earliest memories were of being scared. Friends describe to me how they remember the feelings of love, security, and being valued. I'm not sure I ever felt that.

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